you act as if it meant something
but
it was a nothing
many things in life mean nothing

you saw my body 

but for years

I wasn't really here

They say you don't know how strong you are until being strong is your only choice...
Well I'm scared
I'm really scared
I've never allowed failure to be an option but let me finally tell someone
I'm fucking tired
I've been fighting for 30 years and sure there are other people who have been fighting longer than me
But I have the right to be tired and i'd like a break

sometimes we run out of words..
we feel so many things but there is nothing to speak of
so we just sit in silence
saying nothing
thinking everything
then all of sudden it's too late
that person who meant the world to you is gone
you wanted to tell them the world but you open your mouth and all you could scream was silence.

that's the thing about forever
you never know when you meet the right person
you look into their eyes and hope they are the one
you give your best
they give their best
all you have is time
but time feels like forever waiting to find out if they are the one
you just want to know

and I am so impatient

it's just a whole lot easier to live when the truth is exposed even if its only exposed to ones own self. We all have those skeletons in our closet. I have mine, the secret about that thing that happened that I will never tell anyone until I meet that right man.
 The most important thing is I know the truth and I am living it.

I am living it every day.
        I am not lying to myself.
           Are you...